MY FUTURE

I think I am getting closer and closer to what I want to do with my life, and take on as a profession. For a while I have known that I take a great interest and passion in Theatre arts and Psychology. Seeing the close relation between the two I saw how one would help with the other. I thought about perhaps acting for a while, and later in life working with therapy BUT I think I have discovered what I would really love to do. My mom found a variety of different books for me the other day at a book sale and one was titled, "A Dance with a Dark Angel" Shadow Play Drama Therapy & creative Arts Techniques by Elizabeth Henderson Eisenman. Her father was a Jungian analyst and growing up as a child with a troubled sense of direction ( in her case dyslexia) and discovering she loved acting, but continually hiding this "shadow" of anger and self criticism she found it was only hurting her to do so and it was self-destructive to put a "mask of happiness" on.

Everything that I have learned and discovered through my years of theatre so far, and learning more about psychology is being presented in this book. There is a misconception that the shadow is all bad, evil, and all black. Yet Jung points out that much of what is contained in the shadow is in the essence "80% pure gold." This is saying use your anger, fears, anxiety, whatever it may be through creative outlets, such as drawing, dancing, writing, acting. One has to experience their shadow on a deep level, kinesthetically. "Dialoguing with the shadow by drawing, moving, writing and dancing, she first recognized it for what it actually was, a Dark Angel filled with power, creativity, and insight."

The emergence of your imagination was a revelation, powerful, rewarding and celebratory by nature. You will feel in someway remarkable witnessing and experiencing the birth of your own creativity.

I have decided that I would LOVE to open my own Drama Therapy Studio creating an appropriate atmosphere, stimuli, and materials, images that can "emerge directly from this vast reservoir into the light of day." Through the process of artistic and creative integration we can experience the true nature and value of our personal unconscious.

I could perhaps, come back to San Francisco, open my studio, work in the studio as my day time job, with rehearsals and shows at night.I would be helping others and experience a very thorough personalization warm up everyday.

If I got to do something like this for the rest of my life I would never have to "work" another day in my life, because I would love what I was doing.