SomeONE to love

Someone to hold my hand while we drive.
Someone to kiss my forehead when we hug.
Someone to giggle with in bed.
Someone to kiss me when I'm sad.
Someone to hold me when I'm cold.
Someone to surprise me left and right.
Someone to keep me wanting more.
Someone to sleep with at night.
Someone to smile and I melt.
Some ONE. I just want ONE. So why are you so hard to find?

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Who would have guessed???

Who would have guessed?

The only cure to my bad day blues was Theatre. Simply reading a couple scripts, and then going to my play committee meeting with 5 adults who are passionate about theatre in 5 different ways, and a friend who has only just discovered the ignition of the theatre flame in his body. I walk away feeling lifted...works every time. :)

I don't know if I ever find that perfect someone, who makes life complete, or makes me feel like I'm walking on clouds. All I know is that I am 20 years old, and I have a lot more life ahead of me than in my past, I have found something that makes any bad day disperse, it stimulates my mind, body, and heart, it makes me think and feel in ways that I don't even know are possible until the moment I am thinking or feeling them. I forget about the world, I forget about all the insignificant 20 something, college girl problems, and start to focus on changing the world, changing me, living a life that makes me feel like I know what life is supposed to be about. I don't know what my future holds, but I want to hold onto this find, this feeling, this gift that someone opened my eyes too.

Just like any love out there, you can't go searching for it, it will find it's way to you and you won't be able to help but love it.

I'm Addicted

I'm addicted to the feeling of being EMOTIONALLY POTENT. Finding people who will bring that out in me, having sense memory of a moment and sensations I have had. Discussing how we feel during these moments. Acknowledging moments like catching someone's eye on you and then looking away, but not knowing why you looked away...Wanting to KNOW but NOT wanting to know. Wanting the mystery and chase because it makes us feel so many different things we don't understand, rather than having it all figured out. Theatre is about conflict, LIFE is about CONFLICT, obstacles, problems, bumps in the road, NOT KNOWING, it gives us something to strive towards, something to fight for, to discover about ourselves as a result...

"Life beats down and crushes our souls and theatre reminds us that we have one. At least the type of theatre that I'm interested in; that is, theatre that moves an audience. You have the opportunity to literally impact the lives of people if they work on material that has integrity. But today, most actors simply want to be famous. Well, being an actor was never supposed to be about fame and money. Being an actor is a religious calling because you've been given the ability, the gift to inspire humanity. Think about that on the way to your soap opera audition."

Sanford Meisner